Waking this morning, in the space between being fully asleep or awake, I heard myself cursing my vulnerability and openness yesterday at a circle of trust gathering. I was startled by this reaction and began examining my motives for being that open with twenty-five other people. Was that the real me, or was it a mask to find acceptance with a sympathetic audience? But I know now, upon reflection, that I have had many similar experiences. Being in that kind of safe space draws my soul out into the open. As I said to the group yesterday, it felt as though I had stepped into another reality, different from the material world of survival of the fittest, and I was experiencing a joy, peace, and gratefulness that seems like a description of the Kingdom of God. So, I say “Yes” to that way of being. That is a reality I seek, which is outside so many of the toxic environments that still exist in my world.
The similar space and experience that speaks of safety for my soul is our CFDM monthly “Going Deeper” gatherings on Saturday mornings. On the third Saturday of the month, we use Scripture or a sacred
image to draw our attention to an inward journey that explores deeper areas of wisdom that the Spirit uses to bring us closer to unity with the Divine. Those who hear or notice the call to come together for
that purpose do so either intentionally or perhaps unknowingly to support and encourage others on that journey inward. As I find peace and tranquility, as well as challenge and confrontation with my own
obstacles and false gods, I come out of that three hours together knowing that I have received what I needed from the experience. My soul has found a brief place of safety for a time of reflection, sharing,
and growing deeper towards unity with God and others. The processing and understanding typically extend over the days and weeks afterward, just in time for another chapter in my going deeper journey a month later.
Ken Larson, CSD